Then comes the advice, and usually it does no good. Why? I don't believe school has ever been as difficult as it is now, so mostly it's like-- "Oh, when I was in High School I never had that much work and for college my books cost less than a hundred (in total), oh, and I just had to send in an application--not always even an essay." I'm sure school was difficult, but I also feel so much is expected of us and pushed on us that older generations don't fully get it.
Have you ever gotten the talk where an adult tells you that we are the biggest generation yet, but also the first generation who will probably do worse than their parents. Sorry, but this really doesn't offer any condolences.
I'm sorry, it's just I'm completely exhausted. I feel that I should be doing so much more--my list of extra curriculars isn't very full at all. Where do others get the time? Maybe it's me putting all the pressure on myself, but I really don't think that's completely it. In reality I have to pressure on myself to keep up. I mean, college certainly isn't free and I'm the one who will be bearing the weight of tuition. How much is currently in my bank account? around 250. Not even enough for books.
Anyway, that is too depressing, and I feel like shoving it back into the closet. J, I thought you where never stressed so I don't always talk to you about it. Plus, you're so qualified and creative, to be honest, it really intimidates me.
On brighter news, my uncle came over today and showed me pictures of his trips. He volunteers to help bring labs in developing countries up to the standards set by organizations--he's a microbiologist. Recently, he's been traveling allot in India and a bit of Africa. He also showed us pictures from his vacation to Germany, Czech Republic, and Denmark(it's supposed to be one of the happiest places to live). I would very much like to visit Denmark and India. The places he visited in Africa looked very pretty, but very rural. He was working in allot of facilities that helped mainly mothers. I think that what he's working on is fantastic. In the future, I would love the opportunity to volunteer in a clinic in either Africa or India. Unfortunately where he went in Africa (Sierra Leone) has lots of monkeys. Monkeys are really the only animals that give me the creeps. They're so human-like and intelligent, which would be fine if they didn't scream and bare their huge teeth.
Copenhagen (picture off of:http://eurobuildings.info/wallpapers/denmark/copenhagen_w000.jpg)
Sierra Leone (picure off of:http://www.wwoofsl.org/img/wwoofSierraLeone.jpg)
Sorry, that was a very dry post.
Notes:
-Humboldt County just was hit by a 6.5 earth quake.
-C, how was your Norwegian class on Wednesday night?
-Starting Iranian classes next Thursday so A and I can get to know that kid better.
-A's new side bars are brilliant.
Loves, Sophie
Norweigan lessons are starting this Wednesday now because they couldn't find a place to have them! Darn Norweigans... so disorganized. :/
ReplyDeletePersonally, I feel that you have plenty of extra curriculars. You can't compare yourself to people who do things you don't even want to do -- you know what I mean? Sure, someone goes out and teaches children to ride horses or something and that's a great thing to do, but would you want to do it, too? I doubt it (haha). Seriously, I always hear to saying that you have far too many interests and never do anything about them -- you play the guitar and you sew and you applied for an internship at a radio station; you take steps that lots of people don't! I'm betting this summer you'll find something amazing to do and you'll be sewing dresses in no time. Just don't give up on things.
If a college doesn't see that you have all the promise in the world, it's their loss, not yours.
Hold on, you and A are taking Farsi lessons? ARE YOU SERIOUS? If this is at all true, you MUST invite me! :)
ReplyDeleteI also love that one of the labels of this post is "dangers of monkeys." Beat that, other blogs.
I really love reading your posts, S, because they are so completely honest in an uninterrupted sort of way. Like, I knew you were stressed about stuff but reading this really makes me realize how much pressure you're under.
Also, I second C's statement above. You are so qualified and interesting, S! You have a far superior GPA to C, A or I and are sooooooo incredibly smart, it blows me away. You have no idea how many nights I've spent lying awake in bed trying to figure out how to be more like you. I'm unqualified because I'm lazy--you work so hard and do so much, I pale in comparison.
You should look into a career as a microbiologist. Your uncle sounds like he has an incredible life!
And above all else, we love you, S :) Haha, what more could you ask for? ;)
Haha, and Caboose says I throw names around.
ReplyDeleteI feel like almost everytime we talk on the phone we eventually end up talking about how stressed we are and what about and all, so I think that it's really weird that Jamba and Castration didn't seem to know. Or at least Jamba.
And to Jamba, who said that Iranian was a useless tag, CHECK HOW MANY POSTS HAVE BEEN TAGGED BY THAT HAHA.
Thanks about the banners and looking foward to thursday. and you'd probably be really good working in foreign clinics.
HOLD ON THERE, A: Who said I didn't know about everyone's stress? I talk to S all the time about the stresses of school. Pishaw!
ReplyDeleteOkay and just a question for all: I think there's some way to set up an RSS feed of recent comment on the side and I think since we mostly just talk to each other in comments that could be helpful instead of having to look and see if there are new ones anywhere? Agree/Disagree?
I have just looked at the comments feed and I personally think it'll be good ONLY it screws up apostraphes and all those goodies so they look like, you know, 5%%&354's. Or whatever.
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:( about the comment feed, cause that would be soooo excellent if it worked. Hmm.
ReplyDeleteAnd don't even tell me I don't know about stress. Stress and I are best friends. I have him over to my house everyday. He sleeps over. I'm cheating on Tom with stress. I just don't like talking about it because it (duh) stresses me out.
And A, I take back my Iranian thing in substitute for the "dangers on monkeys" tag.
I wonder if one of us is smart enough to figure one out on our own. :/ I can try.
ReplyDeleteOMDL, I am like beyond talented. :P Score for me!
ReplyDelete(I tried to get the email above it, I'm going to keep working on that... it keeps giving me error messages.) :D
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Sorry for a million comments, but I'm testing it to make sure it really works... it seems a but wonky at the mo...
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One more (hopefully! ugh!)
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Oh my god, this is really frustrating and hard! AHHHHH. >:(
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*crosses fingers*
ReplyDeletePlease please please work this time... this has taken way too long. OMDL.
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Once more? (God this is the most obnoxious post now just because of my comments, eh? SORRY, S.)
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